Useless eternity

Does eternity really exist? Will someone actually love you for that long?

Someone always tells me this, If you compare me to all the other guys outside, who have dated or have not dated you, I'll be furious, because I'm not like them.

It got me thinking, but I quickly snap out of it most of the time. How do you know if you're different or not? To plead and to let myself believe in someone else is a paradox. I don't even trust myself sometimes, be it someone else, someone who tells me he loves me like he never did.

Every doubts that arise are because of this root: I love him more every day. Fear becomes overwhelming. I know that if I become closer than anyone else to this person, feelings will generate, so as emotions and other metaphysical things. Love is a positive element, but Ego comes in various forms, whichever and whatever it could take, like fear, obsession, taking control, self-deny, etc. Do you know how powerful Love is, in order to overcome all the negativities we persuaded into ourselves? Do you know how much a torment it is to fight against these forms that Ego has turned into? I do. I fight against these every day. Just like the Baobab seeds. If I am careless for even a day, the seeds will take root and do you know how big a Baobab tree is? They could easily swallow the entire little globe.

Many think that love and relationship come naturally, and you don't have learn. What is there in this world that comes naturally? We learn to breathe when the air touched the surface of our skin; we learn to see with our eyes as the blinding light of that hospital came to one of our senses; we learn to speak because we had needs to deliver to our parents; we learn to walk because there is a destination we want to get to. Isn't it the same? We learn to love because there is a reason worthy for that lesson. Whatever your reasons are, I learn to love because I am the product of love.

As for eternity, it doesn't really matter any longer as long as I know that I love.