Being in love with this person is the most beautiful thing I could have imagined to happen to me. Day by day I find myself more deeply rooted in love with her. As I progress in this relationship with her I learn more of different shades. Because of that, I fall even more in love.
They say that every experience you may have gained the day before becomes a figment of your recollection today. That memories are but just blur remembrance of what you thought had happened. An augmented reality. But as human beings we all wanna make sense of it. So we keep in our psyches those that are either dear to us or painful to us. It is natural. Or is it?
Our minds are important. It shapes our perception of things. It decides for us who we think we are and how we should respond to the world. I said intentionally "It decides for us" because if you have not realized it yet, you are actually dreaming when your mind is in the works. To be conscious is to observe and decide rather than perceive and react. We are sometimes like little pain buttons when pressed shrieks a loud cry of agony. That is because we did not consciously do something about it.
I've been human for long and these reactions do come natural from the depths of my subconsciousness. It is important for my survival yes. But is it enough for me to live to my fullest, to reach the state if my highest self? To feel the feeling of true love? No. It requires not the mind but the soul/spirit/heart. Where ego cannot touch and logic does not work. Because people say I'm crazy when I tell them that they are trapped in a delusion of the self unconscious.
With these said I'm just expressing that I am working towards my relationship with her not just by playing roles of "boyfriend" or "girlfriend". But to be connected in a higher level. One that does not require words. I believe she is actually more tuned to that than I am. (I is jealous) But nonetheless, I'm working on it.
She becomes more beautiful every moment she reveals more of her different shades. :)
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