Emotionally distressed: Pain

What if we levitate ourselves in higher beings and remove ourselves from emotional distresses like pain?

Memories are created by the subconsciousness of our mind. The emotional pain that we experience are from the consciousness of our mind. What if we remove our subconsciousness, and we could live like newborns every time we decide to hit the 'Delete' button? Everything will feel anew, and as if we have had been there before. The emotional part of our memories deleted. It is like watching a movie, but we feel nothing because we are not the person in the story, nor are we the actors or actresses. 

I haven't been facing my emotional pain. I told myself, If I could escape, why face it? No one is going to find out. No one is going to see through my mask. It was true. No one was able to see through and hit my 'Pain' button. Until one day, someone entered my life and looked at me inside out, as if I gave him the privilege to peek into my mind. The alarm from my subconscious rang. I was terrified to feel exposed, as if I was to be stripped naked in public. Every time it happens, I felt a cold electric sensation surging through my body- worst on the chest, as I struggle to breathe. The subconscious mind is playing tricks on my body. I am not in pain, but I was reminded of the pain, which my body has been so used to react to. Like green leaves that absorb sunlight for photosynthesis, this reaction to pain is already a part of my being. 

Then I ask myself, What if I see every time through the third person's view? I gain no pain, I feel no pain. But, what is the point of feeling no pain and gaining pain? Whoever our creator was or is, I was molded this way, to be given the ability to feel pain. If I don't, am I even human, a complex life-form? If I don't, am I to be compared like a one-cell creature- an algae? I feel pain, only because I am human. I am blessed with this complex structures and systems that men could never be fed up of learning, exploring and discovering. In return, I feel pain (and other else). 

Because we are all blessed with sophisticated minds, we are able to control what we want to feel and what we don't. So often we are pulled into a tide of emotional waves and whirpools, that we panicked and forgot that the human mind is a playground of any possibilities. Everything we look at, is a matter of perception. If we could turn pain, from something negative into something positive, why not? 

I am too, learning to face my pain in my own odd ways.