Jason is now a happy person, all credits to that weird girl. So, he writes and writes a lot and a lot. Look at all those he wrote. This is my first one in November, a very lucky month.
It is an experience, too incredible to be told, for it must be felt with a heart and many nerves, while neglecting the rationals and reasons. Phenomenal, as he spoke of it, it felt right. I don't usually surrender to fate and destiny. For I am a stubborn girl who doesn't surrender much to anything (I always want to win), this time I lost the battle and am I glad to have lost because I was found. Two years or so ago, I was swept off my feet with the similar feelings. I surrendered to it immediately by giving in entirely because that was what I wished for. I have longed for relationship-longetivity. It didn't work. My givings failed to pay off and most of them went to waste. Then, I needed to find out and sort myself out. I grew cold towards this love people have always been talking about. I experimented with a guy, to find out if I could establish the very same feelings I have had for him. I couldn't. It was then I realized that I really loved him back then because I now know how to differenciate love from anything else.
It must have been all set up. I was beginning to love myself more and I was at my most confident state of mind. My journey to the world is embarking and I am about to set my feet on adventures that will help me discover who I am, what I really want, apart from setting my targets in life as well as inspiring me in all aspects. I look forward so much to it that I felt good of all this happenings that I have made to come true. Then someone barged in without notice. Someone who I have met a long time ago, but never made real contacts with. We were both different back then. So different that I believe we would have despised each other. Agreed. Then everything happened miraculously. Only if you believe in miracles. His companionship was comfortable, not one that I would want to escape from. Every one of our conversations kept me intrigued and I felt alive. It is so rare and so exotic. It's like Ash, being able to meet Mewtwo in those shabby bushes or grassy fields. (Pokemon?) Picture that? That rarity. Yeah. That one.
Now I have my spot back!
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