Up level!!

An ideal relationship is built on the basis where 2 creative, independent, passionate individuals working together, supporting each other in growing in love and self actualization within their commitment to each other.

My relationship with my lovely goddess is build upon that foundation. We are on the right track by all that we see and experience. The focus is not working on our relationship but on ourselves and on love. Phenomenal things happen as we move towards our goals. Our relationship grows by leaps and bounds.

But as we all know. Like in many scenarios as we progress and level up to a higher level it becomes more and more difficult to increase in level. It progressively becomes more challenging and that is not a bad thing. It just means that there is more space for expansion. More growth through creative means.

As days go by we fall more in love. It's beautiful and phenomenal. So let's keep leveling up!!

Changing lanes

Throughout life we will face circumstances that seem to hinder us from achieving our goals. When days like these come by we can perceive it as an opportunity or as a shortfall. Plans can change but the goal can remain the same. It is like driving towards your destination then changing lanes in the process.

I believe that when we drive on the road towards our destination we face other drivers or obstacles that will slow us down. We then take notice of the lane next to ours, looking out for other drivers then calculating our move. Life is like that.

5 days

Such is the symphony of the universe. Playing music so phenomenal that you can't help but to feel your being light up as if you were born again. Coincidences that set probability to it's pace. Numbers seem to be of waste. The matter of the heart and the matter of the mind, thrown into the air by the alignment of the stars. It happened and it is not what it's expected. More or less, the feeling still leaves one at awe of what is probable for impossibilities.

I've spent the last 5 days with her. What started off as a fancy idea, a moment of impulse turned into one of the most memorable moments of our lives. A simple birthday wish came true. A wish made with my goddess clad in blue.
With her, together, we learn more of each other. We experience things never before experienced. Tasted life as never before brilliant. Phenomenal.

I rushed to the airport getting the latest ticket to fly to her on the eve of her birthday. As I ran so did my heart. A simple desire to fulfill happiness encourages and drove me without fear to travel across the strait to where she stayed. 2 hour flight. 7.45pm. Upon reaching I steadily plan out my route, looking at the clock tick, anticipating our meeting by the time the hands touch 12. I set my alarm. Embarked on my journey and what was to unfold is nothing short of magic. A tale worthy of romance novels and summer movies.

Upon reaching the guard post at the apartment where she stayed. She made her way down to meet me. We hugged, kissed and made our way back up to the apartment where she lived. Once inside the clock hits 12. My alarm set earlier rang. I held her, kissed her and told her... happy birthday my love.

Spending the night together, we woke up besides each other. Happiness. Bliss. Pure. As pure as the cry of a newborn child. The days following are nothing short of beautiful. Exchanging thoughts, sharing affection and exploring ourselves in our relationship. It was a short 5 days. But it felt like a fulfilling lifetime.

We watched movies lazily. Shopped and cooked up a storm. Lived like how a couple of young adults would in a socially perfect relationship. Then it got me thinking... are others as blessed as we are to be in such bliss and happiness? I certainly do not know. But if I were to guess I would say it is quite rare.

We had limited resources. Time given with boundaries. But with all these it did not hinder us from being completely happily loving the companionship of each other.

The beauty of all this is that in these short 5 days, we had also experienced what seemed at 1st bitterness. Some tears were shed. But like the cracking of a nut shell or the peeling of an artichoke. We got closer to each other's heart. The result strengthened our bond.

So much were the moments that it will indeed take me another 5 days to put it into words.

Now I've left her to be back where my duties require me. I'm content and high on bliss and love. Carving this memory into stone, these words I shall etch.

121013 The meeting

Saturday. 12 October 2013. The weather seems calm today I said to myself quietly as I walked down the stairs at the Sri Petaling train station. Cheras she said. So I poked around the ticketing machine seeking to purchase a token to arrive at the said destination. Patiently I wait for train to arrive. As I wait I amuse myself with possibilities and a plan of action. My agenda for the day is to meet a girl. A girl who live in Cheras.

As I board the train I gave my attention to the way map. Seeking to reassure my destination. As the train moves so did my mind as I continue to dream in and out. I then realized and dropped her a text message regarding my arrival. She did not reply.

As I reach Cheras train station I took my time exploring. Seeking a convenience store for a notebook and pen. I was craving to write and out of desperation I got a notepad and a green pen. Far from my expectations of a notebook and a black pen. It was the only option easily available. I then seeked liquids to quench my thirst. I sat down, ordered my drink and began to write. With the arrival of my iced lime I received a text reply from her. Apparently I went to the wrong station. So I hastily finished my drink and paid the bill. As I stepped out of the roof covering my head heading to the station the sky unleashed it's fury over me. Progressively increasing in intensity. But I reached the station with only a kiss of the rain.

Tbs station she said. So I grabbed the token and again waited patiently for the train. As I wait I think. But now I think I write in that yellow notepad with my green pen. I feel eyes observing me. As if it is strange to see person writing in a book. Fair enough. The train arrived and I board towards the said destination.

The moment I got off the train at the tbs train station I increase my vigilance. Looking at every female face that I come by, scanning the crowd to identify her. She has yet to arrive I told myself. Amused by my own eagerness I decided to do some exploring in this place new to me. Walking around the station then into the central building adjacent to the station I wait for her call. As I wait I stroll around and observe the people around me. Thinking to myself if they are waiting for someone as I am. I continue to amuse myself with my thoughts.

She called. As my phone rings I began to feel butterflies. I have yet to hear her voice. As we spoke she told me that she would seek for me as I stayed put. I obliged but as I am, I went to the entrance seeking to meet her half way.

There at the entrance, as I walk towards it I see her walking towards me. A black cap worn backwards, blue tee, raggy short denims and a converse or north star shoe. Our eyes meet and we greeted.

I asked her what are the plans for today. She replied with a certain uncertain answer. She asked me where would I like to go I also answered with a certain uncertainty. Along the way we somehow decided that we'd have IKEA meatballs. I've heard of them, was never interested, but it sounded like a good idea. Maybe because there were no other ideas.

At tbs we took a train to kelana jaya to take a free shuttle to IKEA. Upon reaching reaching kelana jaya she took me around where she previously have stayed before. Walked pass an overhead bridge to the other side, pass the shoplots, pass the houses to a little eaterie serving pan mee. As we walked I recalled our conversation about books. She mentioned the book The Little Prince. I would not have understood it's significance until recently when I read it. It's a really good book.

Boarding the shuttle on the way to IKEA she questioned about past lives and rebirth. Reached IKEA to find an interesting sight. It was a gundam fair. We both showed little interest and moved on. A visit to the toilet then I asked her what should we do next. She asks me the same. Not sure if polite or seriously have no idea where to go. Then she led me straight to the cafe where the prized IKEA meatballs are served. Upon reaching my knees grew weak as I see a sea of people lining up with trolleys of food. Queuing for the meatballs 30 minutes. Grabbed 10 meatballs. Looking for a seat 30 minutes. As we discuss the awesomeness of meatballs and jam while despising that coconut flavored Swiss dessert known as the Marzini, I lost track of time. Realizing others are waiting for a seat we moved not long after were done eating. As we walked around here and there we looked curiously at tacos and nachos. I then asked if there were any nice places to chill and have a drink. A German beerhouse she said and that's where we ended up for the next 3 hours or so. I ordered 2 beers. A pint each. I couldn't even pronounce the name right let alone spell it so I'll save me the trouble of trying. We talked and laughed and got abit tipsy. Far and wide are our topics. But one topic ruled most of our conversation and that is of love and relationship. We also mentioned having a business with me in the spotlight and her in the shadows. That piece would turn out to be quite interesting later on. Time calls and we left to catch my shuttle back. But I missed it as she watches it move away. No matter. I'll wait for the next one. We then had the taco and nacho we were so curious about. She expected her boyfriend who ultimately did not arrive. As we sat by the taco kiosk and there we had a conversation about fate and consequence. This fate and consequence thing provoked my thinking. Took a couple pictures and moved towards a bookstore. She said she didn't want to go intentionally but I think differently. Boarders I believe the name of the bookstore is called. Little books, books with pop outs, funny comments and interesting content. As we move from books we stumbled upon a music box display. It was cool. Missed the shuttle again. This time because she got the schedule wrong. She blamed me lol. Then we took a taxi to the closest station to get back to our own lives. During the train rides I'll look at the window at her reflection and wonder what she is thinking of. I wondered why I'd bother wondering. But it was interesting and it amused me. So I kept wondering. I believe she was tired and sleepy as she forgets her station and token. I explained to her and teased her slightly at her little carelessness. As she reach her drop off point, we said our farewell and the day came to a close.

I missed details but that's due to my capacity. I could do better if I wrote them out on the day itself. I just didn't expect it's significance. Not until recently

Salvaging the past for a dream of the future

I had a nightmare last night. I dreamt of her, my past. The hurt she put me through. The devotion I've submitted in vain. The troubles and the pain. But I know I had the nightmare for a reason. The reason was that I should not neglect the past but salvaged what I've gained. Moving forward to a brighter future. With my goddess by my side.

Right. Memories were past events that are tied together with emotions. The more intense the bond the more attached it is to our being. The harder for us to move on with the burden. In pain we find comfort due to the familiarity. We are afraid of what we don't know so we'd rather stay with what we know even if it hurts. We are but people. But it is time we realize the reality of us. That we are human beings. With unlimited and unbounded potential. I'm ready to grow. Are you?

In the game of fate and consequence, I am blessed with the loss of my personal belongings. It is a blessing because I held those possession dear with many images and memories of my past. Yes I kept those that hurt too because I'm comfortable around the familiar hurt. I've been working hard to move forward but the baggage slowed me down.

In the game of fate and consequence I also was blessed with the fateful meeting of my goddess clad in blue. I met her with skepticism but ultimately fell in love. I'm now happy and on track to a beautiful future. 

I'm thankful. I appreciate my life more now. Things are brighter. I'm happier. I'm sure my goddess feels the same. Look, learn, Let go

Dark tides

As the clock strikes 3am. I've just gone through your written thoughts. I've not gone far. Only as far back to April. I have not read every single line as I glanced only. Attempting to learn of your past but not to dwell. At a point where I  learn of names and such I still do not know who I am identifying. I leave it there for now. As I close for the morning I felt a need to write to you.

As the watch cogs tick and the motors on the AC hums. My mind writes as you are fast asleep. My sweetheart. So dark has the past months been. Through some faint light shone through tinted glass have I read of your joy. I feel that it is not right for my goddess to have gone through such troubles. But as the past is passed. I too shall speak it only once and no more.

Now I have little to show for my past turmoils. I have not written them down. I feel that it might become baggage later on. So I lose them. But if you were to ask me to show you my dark past. I'd happily satisfy your request.

My love. Rest assured that I will love you with all my heart. The rest of my life I devote to your happiness. You've been hurt enough. You've had enough sleepless nights. You've cried enough tears. And so have I.

We may be deserving of this love we share now. As we play this game of fate and consequence, only time will tell of our future in love. But I'm going to work towards it. Because I believe in us. Because you believe in us. I'll be the best for you so that no other man may lay his finger on you. Not even their eyes are worthy of looking at you. I'll keep you safe and sound. Secure in my arms you will be. With you, I am, always.

As we meld into each other. Our dark tides collide and to my surprise... It has soothed our souls. We are much alike in many ways yet different. You're one weird adorable thing and I love you.

Ambiguous Speech

My mind is my playground,

Language, its purpose, an ambiguity. 

The purpose of having spoken language puzzles me. As we speak, we wish to penetrate the hearts, but failing to do so, we give only information.

Maybe verbal speech isn't the true form of communication.

Maybe back then, people hug each other and look into their eyes to deliver and comprehend each other's feelings, telephatically. 

Maybe when the world evolves, and knowledge spreads, it is then only human started speaking, for it was essential, only to deliver knowledge, but not emotions.

Maybe that's why when I speak 'I love you' some wouldn't believe it because I don't connect to their hearts. 

Maybe I should have hugged them tight instead, while letting the frequency of my heart beat resonates with theirs, so they would feel my love, instead of hearing my words.

That is how Physics goes, and Physics is the study of the universe. While humans are one of the many subjects of the universe. 

A private playground for my thoughts,

Shae

Orbiting around the moon

Have you ever met a person that would have changed the course of your life forever? A person who intertwined with your fate? A sudden encounter that forced your being to orbiting and revolving around this person? Have you?

A person with gravitational force so strong that you from your routine life was drawn out. Drawn into the life of the other. You felt as if you had no control and just submitted. But you were aware. Conscious the whole time. So what happened?

There are a handful of theories we can throw around that would have made sense. But usually this means challenging the thoughts that you have been comfortable with. That you were alone. That you knew where you stand. That this would never happen.

I am not going to enlighten you today for I would like to challenge you in your own thoughts. The fruits will taste sweeter this way.

I'm now orbiting around the moon. The celestial being I call my goddess. Sweet

To the readers

Good morning, afternoon, evening dear readers. I first want to thank you all for dropping by and reading our writing. We love to write and we hope you enjoy what we wrote. Now I would like to apologize for the progress of this blog. Let me just slowly clarify the situation yea?

Genesis.
Now. This blog started off as a platform for me and Shae to learn of each other's writing style. That is why it is titled 'we write'. Genesis, the beginning that set the stage for Prophecy to unfold. As we progressed as like minded authors we progressed into something more.

Progress.
I have knowledge of Shae's existence for many years now but held no significance. Until I read her writing and asked if she would be interested in writing with me. That is how this blog came about. Although we write but we've never spoken. Given the opportunity I would set the stage for our meet up. I asked her and she was skeptical. Initially we were at different parts of Malaysia. So she said we would meet up if fate played the right hand. I scoffed at the idea of fate back then because I do not want to believe in fate. I believed in consequence. That action = result. Well... now I'm proven wrong. Because of a number of weird turn of events we fell in love.

Prophecy.
It is said that reality exists twice. 1st in the mind then it's manifestation in real life. I would like to call this phenomena Being. Being humans we are given this amazing mind and a soul. Logic and intuition play hand in hand. Somehow fate, luck, coincidences can be read and understood. I had all too many dejavus to deny this understanding. As our thoughts unfold before us and insecurities melt away. It can only be labeled as a miracle.

Here. Now.
We now are in talks of whether to progress with this blog for our readers or to begin another that is more general and public friendly. More concise and focused. But whatever course of action we take you can be guaranteed that our content will be thought intriguing.

So readers. I thank you again for dropping by and reading our writing and again I apologize for these weird turn of events. Do give us feedback to let us know what you think.

Stay awesome people!!

Sweet sweet spot

Taking back my spot!

Jason is now a happy person, all credits to that weird girl. So, he writes and writes a lot and a lot. Look at all those he wrote. This is my first one in November, a very lucky month. 

It is an experience, too incredible to be told, for it must be felt with a heart and many nerves, while neglecting the rationals and reasons. Phenomenal, as he spoke of it, it felt right. I don't usually surrender to fate and destiny. For I am a stubborn girl who doesn't surrender much to anything (I always want to win), this time I lost the battle and am I glad to have lost because I was found. Two years or so ago, I was swept off my feet with the similar feelings. I surrendered to it immediately by giving in entirely because that was what I wished for. I have longed for relationship-longetivity. It didn't work. My givings failed to pay off and most of them went to waste. Then, I needed to find out and sort myself out. I grew cold towards this love people have always been talking about. I experimented with a guy, to find out if I could establish the very same feelings I have had for him. I couldn't. It was then I realized that I really loved him back then because I now know how to differenciate love from anything else. 

It must have been all set up. I was beginning to love myself more and I was at my most confident state of mind. My journey to the world is embarking and I am about to set my feet on adventures that will help me discover who I am, what I really want, apart from setting my targets in life as well as inspiring me in all aspects. I look forward so much to it that I felt good of all this happenings that I have made to come true. Then someone barged in without notice. Someone who I have met a long time ago, but never made real contacts with. We were both different back then. So different that I believe we would have despised each other. Agreed. Then everything happened miraculously. Only if you believe in miracles. His companionship was comfortable, not one that I would want to escape from. Every one of our conversations kept me intrigued and I felt alive. It is so rare and so exotic. It's like Ash, being able to meet Mewtwo in those shabby bushes or grassy fields. (Pokemon?) Picture that? That rarity. Yeah. That one.

Now I have my spot back!

She said

There are sure lots of things we talked about. Then she said for the 1st time.

I love you

I was like....

GREAT SUCCESS!!

So.... yea... that's what she said.
I'm happy

I'll see you again

As awesome as it might sound but it all happened in less than a month. It went and swept them  off their feet as if we were pieces of leaf litter in autumn. Swept by not the cold wind of autumn but by the summerwind. 2 partially damaged souls seeking an answer to self and love met. They fell in love almost instantly if not for the barriers they put up. A man with great vision who decided that love was a game of structure. A girl with great ambition who believed that love is not worthy of trust. A story of fate and consequence unfold. Love was found in the midst of losing it.

In that short time frame they met. Fell in love. Shared intimacy. Manifested a relationship that most people can only dream of. Perfect.

Perfection itself is flawed. As they met in this moment of time, they are still damaged souls recovering. Seeking answers to self and love. Fate played it's hand. But in order for them to truly test their love. Fate threw a challenge. A test of devotion.

They are young. Hungry for the different tastes of life. If indeed they succed in this test of devotion then they are truly worthy of love.

She is now embarking on a journey into the world. He is embarking on a journey into the unknown. They are apart but in love. God knows what the future holds. A matter of fate and consequence.

I need not words of affection to show you how I feel for you. And I too need not words to know your feelings for me. It's simple. Laughable. Lovely. Phenomenal.

Keep my heart close to yours. Let the taste of German beer recall the day we met. Let the trinked remind you of the moon and the stars. The sandy beach by the midnight ocean dark. Let my shirt carry the moment we kissed. The collar that you held on so tight as your body tingle with pleasure. Let these words reassure you that it was all a dream. A dream that came true. So I'll see you again someday my goddess clad in blue.